“Coffee”


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As the morning sunrise approaches, I knew within moments the thoughts fresh on my mind would be the same thoughts I woke to each morning, saying to myself “time to get up and make coffee.”  I rolled out of bed and stumbled over the cat as I made my way to the kitchen only to realize I forgot to pick up coffee beans. I knew from previous mornings I intended to stumble throughout my day without a mug coffee.

Would you find me complaining or stomping on those damn beans? Most certainly I rather get those damn beans than stumble throughout my day. Rest assures those roasted beans would be on the top of my grocery list on any given day.

Say to myself “why can’t I keep things straight with those coffee beans?” I glanced over at the coffee filters on the kitchen counter feeling frustrated . I grabbed the coffee pot and lifted it up towards my head shaking it to see if there was left over coffee from the day before. Only to find a few drops covered in coffee grounds that had leaked through the coffee maker. I placed the coffee pot back on the counter and began looking through all the cabinets, moving and pushing things around. Not a trace of coffee grounds could be found, saying to myself “here we go again!”

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I turned around to find my cat on the table outside. I hollered out the window at her to get off the table, only to get attitude. I made my way out to the deck and I picked her up. I said to her”where’s your table manners? Stay off the table!” I gently placed her on the ground and went back inside the house.

I threw on some clothes, grabbed some cash and made my way to the front door saying “damn, I can’t believe this! Those damn roasted beans could make a mockery out of me!”

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Out the door I go with those damn beans on my mind, stumbling and fumbling down the street; tripping over everything. I walked down the street with my hair frizzy and out-of-place. All the cars that passed on by, I could care less either way. I walked down the street with a green neon shirt and faded jeans as I fumbled down the street, saying to myself “those damn beans already began to jinx my day!”

I made my way to the coffee shop swinging the front door open in full force, stumbling and fumbling all the way. I walked up to the counter as bystanders glanced and stared my way. Surely I’d forgotten about my green neon shirt and my frizzy hair out-of-place. Thinking to myself “nothing could faze me a bit or stand in my way. Those damn roasted coffee beans; I could smell them a mile away!”

I stood there staring down at those coffee beans hollering to the cashier “extra-large coffee with creamier and make it to go!” I grabbed a pen off the counter and began to write my grocery list. I placed those coffee beans on the top of the list.

I grabbed my coffee and went about my day, sipping on it as I placed the grocery list in my pocket.

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Habitual as it may seem, it would appear those roasted beans are imbedded in me. By nightfall without a doubt, I knew those roasted beans would slip my mind.

Will tomorrow repeat itself over those damn roasted beans? I fell asleep and forgot that I had left the grocery list in my pants pockets. Surely by sunrise I will have realized I’d forgotten to get those damn roasted beans…

 

Copyright By Marsha Beede (2012)

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Embracing Life’s Challenges


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As I ponder within my thoughts and begin to write. My writing brings me reminiscing or perhaps within thoughts as I pause away from the present moments. I often ponder on being complete in a whole because who can define what really matters in life.

Can a person single handily be complete by the one whom crosses your path? Or do many single handily inspire you to fill life with some sense of belonging. One thing for sure, to feel a sense of completion a person needs to find integrity from within for things we may desire or perhaps long for.

Yet to a sense of self to say “I don’t need anyone to feel complete” is to say we don’t need humans to survive on earth. To be carried through life with a sense of belonging is a fundamental part of who we are.

As I begin to reminisce through time with memories, travel forward with an essence of belonging. Perhaps it might otherwise be daydreaming or dreadful memories that I find myself pulled into without recognizing at times what stands in plain view.

Staying present in the moment can at times be harder than it looks. Countless times I’ve found myself caught in a daydream or reminiscing. Hanging on to one of the things I tell myself at times I don’t really need.

A person can climb a mountain through time travelling only with thought. But to get there, you’ll need a guide or sense of direction to find some mastery. Mastery at best requires people or things around us to accomplish great things. A vortex at its best will pull a person in when we don’t seek things internally or externally.

While we journey through life or perhaps walk through great mountain terrains, our thoughts, experience, emotions derive from within. We than externally seek things out that we may ponder on or when we long for some sense of enlightenment to fill a void.To remember and acknowledge we all have limitations we set forth. Not everything can be given freely and not everything can be taken.

To give into ones needs to find purpose in life carries a fundamental understanding within that limitations are among us all.

Fears that derive from within may carry merit when we can acknowledge why we may feel this way and then place this knowledge towards better use. But also understand within ourselves that sometimes facing fears and emotions head on can be the hardest task at hand.

As you may begin to perhaps reminisce through time with memories, travel forward with an essence of belonging you may find yourself standing at the bottom of a mountain. While staring at this mountains path that may be unknown, one can begin to admire its beauty from within and the external factors at hand. While gazing at this mountain with a sense of sight, you can begin to carry insight.

Is this mountain a fresh view for your eyes or is it one you attempted long ago? Does your heart race for the adventure with excitement or does it race with fears one may feel inside?

Who will stand next to you while travelling upwards towards this mountains terrain or perhaps one may choose to stand alone the distance at hand?

Does your heart crave to pave way with others while traveling through the unknown or does one willfully create action within that you can call your own?

As you may begin to pave way new journeys, new memories or perhaps old memories to guide you, you begin taking the experience at hand while travelling uphill through the mountains terrain.

You readily take a stance and face the terrains head on. Barreling forth ahead only to find your thoughts can be self-guided.

You may begin to realizing your actions by staying in the present moment. With every move, you begin to walk up this mountain and you take pieces of it with you. Are you self-guided or do the pieces at hand provide insight and guild you?

Setting sight on everything within your path, you begin to set forth the journey at hand. Motioning forward any direction you can go, carrying pieces of this mountains terrain as you continue to go.

All the while you feel the breeze, smelling the crisp air as you travel far. The gentle leaves move within the trees and whisper subtle as can be, the stream ahead may fill your thirst as your internal insight sets in motion.

Follow the light as it settles upon you, build a fire all around you. The ground beneath you carry’s your feet to travel far; the air you breathe becomes your friend by far.

Perhaps you traveled far with another; you may find you’ve discovered shared experience best at hand.

To feel complete, would you stand alone or walk the mighty terrains and embrace the one at hand?

As you walk through the mighty terrains building lasting memories, will it become your journey you’ll come to embrace or perhaps withstand …?

Copyright © Marsha Beede  (2014)

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