The tide that binds hasn’t always had its place. How souls must be lost in a mesh of forsaken words or unable to turn a page? The backlash of another where it didn’t have its place told tales of a thousand words in oblivious attempts to hinder the suffering of their own souls. A thousand words too many came from a forsaken place or unable to turn a page.
Words warrant to another didn’t have its place. Countless times in the ruins of chaos, the mighty tongue of another sliced at the hearts of others unable to turn a page while it battled to find its place.
Chaos at its best becomes words of many; ten folds too many so to speak. Turning a page with the mass of many becomes the ultimate destruction that turns tides into withered storms. The backlash of a storm at its best becomes a category 5; a chaotic rumpus turns nights into days. How do words that carry no merit among tides wither away to a forsaken place?
The backlash of ten folds continues on while the tide binds in a chaotic mesh. Back and forth the words of haste continue barreling down at another. Over and over words began to stumble over one another. Fumble back and forth; stamping on everything in its path.
Rampage carries on, cursing back and forth to any forsaken ear that would quiet ones mind. Mass destruction at its best will cycle any which way it can go. Chaos at its best will continue slamming a book shut and unable to turn a page.
A fierce haste in the eyes of another is damaging at its best. Pacing back and forth, slamming doors till ears burst!! Foul a mood with their vigilante ways, slam a book shut; slam a door any which way it will go. The fury blood of another condemns hatred of another.
How long must rage carry on till the voice of another is truly heard? The sorrows of a poor soul withers away with haste may condemn their own soul. Falling silent behind every door slammed; slamming a book shut or tears a page. Souls that are damned in a fiery rage cannot soothe their own souls. One can slam a thousand doors or burn a book to prevent it from turning a page and still not be heard from the racing mind within.
The mind of a chaotic rumpus is a silent destruction and unable to voice its troubled soul or turn a page. A mind that races with time unable to neither slow itself down, nor can it quiet itself till the soul truly understands itself.
The rage; those cycles may be repetitive at its best, turning a page may have falling still at its best. The rage within while slamming doors cannot be heard. One can slam ten thousand doors and still not be heard. Walk a plank or pace back and forth only to ravage the tide at its best. Throw a thousand loose pages from a book into the tide that binds and still fall silent, unable to be heard.
The chaotic ruins within can only reflect from the view of one’s own eyes. The heart falls silent from emotions stirring up inside.
Copyright © 2014 by Marsha Beede
I carry value in philosophy when it comes to motivation and setting goals. I am a freelance writer, motivational life coach within the community. My work extends into social media networking and barriers that sometimes keeps a person stuck pondering endlessly from time-to time. Mindfulness has become a way of life for me and I share my experiences with those whom seek to find a meaningful balance in life. Finding ways to cope with life stressors, as well, to think outside the box. To place understanding into a different perspectives when hindered by ones own fleeting thought process or collective barriers beyond interpersonal communication. To better understand OCD and other mental health factors one may find difficult to understand. To define meaning into the theory of all things that may place ones thought process into state doubts; questions one may desire to find and/or at times embrace their own burden of truths. For one to find willingness to know that sometimes thoughts serve no other purpose than to simply be fleeting and/or thoughts that do not warrant an emotional response. To allow ones thoughts to freely pass and stay in the present moment.
Lets take a walk into the world of mindfulness…
This video is a two-part series to Arts & Eating Disorders in partnership with The Emily Program Foundation & The International OCD Foundation on separate occurrences from 2015 through 2017.
As time went by I added a video to contribute to the poem read on the video that was made though donations for The Emily Program Foundation.
However this documentary address other coexisting psychological condition referenced towards OCD & Eating Disorders. One that proved to be quite challenging to overcome. I walked a path for years on fears alone and I can say with certainty that this proved to be a powerful source. After all fear can be quite a motivating factor and relentless at the very least. Not to long I submitted an article to The International OCD Foundation and received a welcoming response of acceptance. The article is based on living with OCD and tools I’ve learned throughout the years to maintain a healthier quality of life.
“OCD; Trapped in compulsive modes, wrapped within unwanted thoughts and fearsome images”
By Marsha Beede
Is it possible for the unimaginable to happen to you? Where one day you wake from a deep cloud, a decade later, only to find life has passed you by? An unhealthy sense of fears, shame and guilt that was never yours to own, but rather you may have carried sorrows, regrets and pains of others that became so deep that fears and images lay within you and depleted every effort you made?
This can happen too many and it did happen to me…
Story of survival can be found at https://iocdf.org on their 2017 Summer Newsletter.
Spiritual Path in Distress”
When it comes to human behavior, actions in regards as to how a person responds to a crisis mode in their lives may at times mimic a cluster of personal distress of destruction. A crisis can condition a person to stray far from stabilization in any manner within actions. This doesn’t necessarily change or modify a person’s elevated state of being but rather dysfunction may occur.
It is often said when it comes to addictions, mental illness, one may survive at a bare minimal in times of struggles. One’s ability to maintain a faction of hope strays far, just enough to keep a person on solid ground; living moment-by-moment in any given circumstances where there are shadows of doubts…
If you know of a love one whom may be struggling with mental health seek help through a mental health professional or call a crisis hotline in your area because it’s never too late.
“Change starts with ones action; to become unglued and resilient to change on ones perspective views towards a better quality of life”
“All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion and desire”
Spirituality as we know comes in many forms through core values, exposure, personalization, ethnic, culture, religion, beliefs, etc.
Spirituality is within a person’s inner source, intuitive thoughts and how one might perceive things in life.
Elements within a person’s core values may reflect traditional methods through integration and/or congregation within one’s own habitat. One may choose to surround themselves in a manner of how one perceives life’s spiritual values.
Where the wheel spins within ones thoughts and human behavior, actions form in regards as to how a person responds to circumstances in life and at times bring more spirituality into life in such divine ways.
Cause & Effect:
Circumstances within cause and effect may compellingly choose to respond with or without engaging in some form of action. Cause and effect may acknowledge its existence in an underlining source subconsciously.
Through subconscious awareness one may link in some sort of inner source; connective thoughts lay down a foundation of complexity placed within itself. Sometimes collective thoughts may form visions about life, one where most people are better in the abstract of a mindset formation as to how one wishes things to be.
However disarray may at times mimic a cluster of personal distress and how one function in everyday life. At times during emotional distress one might feel as life has become an avalanche.
One where everyday stress may build-and-build until it all unfolds; pours out in a colossal mess…
Cause and effect through turbulent emotions may at times linger or fester and lead to explosive reactions when things to become bothersome.
Someone once said “it comes in a can.” This implies at times one can become stuck reminiscing, ruminating and over-thinking situations by setting the stage and making things appears worse than they really are. At times this may create problems that were never there to begin with. Almost as if one were to mix magnesium sulfate with soda to calm a storm.
However, staying in the present moment and not allowing things to unfold in the heat of moment can lead to more positive outcomes. But also learning to stay mindful with reminders to not let things become bothersome and spiral downward by placing defensive reactions out of an alarming emotional response. Reminders to not to over-think; explaining the same thing 5 different ways.
Finding balance in life will be the most beneficial element to achieving respite within. Most of us will spend a lifetime searching for this. Life doesn’t come with instructions and neither does balancing our everyday lives. But through our own trial and error we can adopt readiness guided by willingness to make personal change.
Conditioned to Crisis:
A crisis can condition a person to stray far from stabilization in any manner within cause and effect, creating an avalanche effect that may continue to build regardless.
Many individuals at one time or another have come across circumstances in their lives that sent them on a mission in an overwhelming emotional state. This doesn’t necessarily change or modify another person’s elevated emotional state of mind, but rather dysfunction may occur.
One may at times mimic or draw conclusions to reflect on their own emotional response, conditioned through a belief system right down to personal and core values.
One may find within their own personal habitat that their own state of mind may react spontaneously to a crisis mode (often referred to as a rescue mode).
Perhaps worrisome thoughts have captured an emotional response and created a downward spiral of emotions flooding in a state of panic towards one’s spouse, family member or a loved one. In a state of panic (rescue mode) to rid unwanted emotions or problem solve we sometimes become compelled in stressful situations to place ourselves in the driver’s seat of a vehicle, only to find that one is in overdrive with their foot floored to the gas pedal based in a state of fear to React! Respond! Do Something!
The Impact Effect:
Many individuals at one time or another have come across circumstances in their lives that sent them on a mission prompted by emotional state of reaction to current events.
At times current events may have unfolded in our community or around the world, leaving a reaction of overwhelming emotional response prompted by chain of events. The cause and effect reactions to how one may feel about presumable actions or a crisis in current events that may prompt a reaction within one’s own emotional state of being.
Unfortunately prompted in a crisis mode in current events we may at times unintentionally create more havoc.
Spirituality in the Making:
Perhaps a loved one has been ill with a serious medical condition and you find yourself facing fears head on. Maybe it’s a friend having a difficult time managing his/hers mental health distress or perhaps it is someone close to you fighting a drug/alcohol addiction and you feel absolutely powerless to do anything.
In any state of being it can be difficult to carry someone close to one’s heart who inflicts emotional harm onto themselves or others, leaving one to be unable to receive a healthier connection.
In some cases where one’s spiritual beliefs may be in distress and broken down. It can be difficult for a loved one to comprehend the impact of cause and effect. To learn to set aside differences because each person is unique to their own core values when it comes to spirituality.
At times it is necessary to place one’s own spiritual beliefs aside; to be checked in and left at the front door. Individuality creates each person to uniquely define their own core values; their own belief system.
At times ones spiritual beliefs may lead one to believe notions through spiritual entity to be the only path in such divine ways. Ultimately by engaging in a sense of notions disagreeable to another may prompt one to create actions that may do more harm than good.
Most often relationships become much more wholesome when a person can relate on a more personal level without judgments and lack thereof the use of words that may hinder a person’s ability to feel validation.
Validation is crucial part of communication when it comes to a healthier connection. Whereas one being empathetic in comparison isn’t because it may become misguided words.
Things in life aren’t intended to be all-or-nothing; black-or-white. There are many shades of gray to lay down a healthy foundation in one’s life.
Spirituality Right Down to the Core:
If I were to use addiction as an example with someone struggling to find reasons to believe things will get better. Most often a person’s addiction can spiral into a path of destruction, leaving one’s self-worth, personal core values to plummet downward.
One’s spirituality may have already been hindered collectively through emotional duress without the ability to reason and/or see things differently.
For some spirituality may falter so far that even an avalanche couldn’t persuade one to find shelter.
“It is often said when it comes to addictions, mental illness, health conditions one may strive at a bare minimal in times of struggles. One’s ability to maintain a faction of hope strays far, just enough to keep a person on solid ground and living moment-by-moment in any given circumstances where there are shadows of doubts…”
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